For months, Facebook posted a daily reminder on my personal timeline the exact number of days it had been since I last posted on Margaret's Morsels Facebook page. It's no surprise the date corresponds to the last time I posted anything on my blog.
If you're a regular reader of my blog, you know I don't reveal much about my personal life when I share recipes. I'd like to think what I write is more important than the one doing the writing. However, over the last few months, I've received emails from readers wanting to know why I stopped posting. After thinking about it, I decided I should explain my absence, especially since some of you have followed my blog since day one.
The last seven months have been some of the most difficult of my life. I've reached an age where I look back on my life and question the decisions I made -- and the ones I didn't make -- and wonder if I made the right choices. This intense soul searching has been accompanied by a plethora of tears, stress, confusion and sleepless nights. Unfortunately, my blog is a casualty of this rumination because, I discovered, I cannot write when I experience inner turmoil. Believe me, I tried, but I couldn't get past the first paragraph.
If I can't write when I experience turmoil, why am I writing today? Good question. I actually started writing this message over a month ago, but couldn't find the words I needed to say. Since I'm able to write something, I guess it's a sign things are getting better, although I still haven't found the answers I was so desperately searching for. I'm still plagued on a daily basis with all the coulda, woulda, shoulda thoughts that have been an unwelcome constant companion since April.
I thoroughly enjoy blogging and deciding which recipes to share and when. I thought, perhaps, I could ease back into blogging by posting once a week, just like a newspaper food section. However, I'm not sure I want to be that rigid. I really like the flexibility of being able to post when it's a particular food day -- such as National Peanut Butter Cookie Day -- or food is in the news like it was earlier this year when there was a shortage of Velveeta cheese.
Not too long ago, Facebook gave up and stopped telling me how many days it had been since I last posted on Margaret's Morsels. Thanks to all of you for not giving up on me! A special welcome to the new followers who have joined since April. Thank you for your patience and understanding as I get back into a routine of posting new content. I have a lot of tasty recipes I want to share and who better to share them with than people who like to cook. I hope to see you soon.
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